#quickbits 4

Jul 11, 2025

I’m on PTO until mid next week and while it’s been pretty great
however, I discovered I am the problem.

what i saw / what i thought

I’m addicted to collecting ideas, to being paralysed by creative indecision (also addicted to comparing myself to other people who’ve been doing things for way longer than me)… (my coworkers).

the video below I made for a new tiktok account and it received a whipping 26 views and 0 engagement.

more about the limbo of creativity here

what i can’t stop thinking about

the idea of monetising a crashout isn’t new to me (if it is to you, read this)
i've written before about performative vulnerability and the surge of bullshit facebook posts after Sheryl Sandbergs “Lean In” and Brené Browns “Daring Greatly”.
I could say I’m just not “Gen Z” enough to turn on my camera when i’m crying and film an angry rant. it’s more than that though, it’s all the shit in between. making the above video was so humbling because it is proof of a reality I didn’t want to face.
form vs function and motherhood. why do mothers seem to choose function every time. (researching now- post soon)
how do you reach out to someone who’s work you enjoy? I’m no stranger to cold dming people from “the internet” to let them know i love their work. what does it mean to enjoy something?